My despair and pathetic mode had been activated due to my irrational act. A harsh act that might have changed my life forever. To recall back all the past, I just feel like break down into tears. Although the past had been closed and remained strong but I just couldn't stand still. All I ever did was whining and complaining like an immature person. Perhaps, it was due to different ways of concepts in life and it just made me felt so pathetic and stupid. I only want back my cost, is that hard?