Thursday, June 27, 2013

Before I sleep tonight, I need to jot down few things

I'm starting to cook again or maybe boiling soup.

Partially, because I'm bored and I need something nutritious and soup is the easiest to make.

Suddenly, I have so many random activities in my mind.

Should I go for Yoga classes or breakdance classes?

Should I explore the west or east side of Singapore?

Should I learn drums or new language?

Too much dreams to achieve in a short time.

I have a research due in like one month. Damn!

Saturday, June 22, 2013

RIP. You'll always be remembered.

Life and death often came very shock to everyone and how I was obsessed with the idea of death back then. It is how we can not avoid death regardless of your age but you can cheat death? Or should I describe it as fate. So what if you are wealthy but you still have to end up on your death bed.

In a week, I received two shockingly death news.

1. My aunt (that I'm not really close with, my dad's sister in law), had met into a motorcycle accident and passed away because of serious injury. The accident happen when I was in KL like three- four weeks ago. No one told me until I went back last week, my mum broke the news secretly in the car.

2. My landlady's husband. Apparently, he died peacefully in the house's kitchen and he is really old. He had to endure pain and sickness which he had accepted the fact. He was a very sweet looking old man. He doesn't seems to have temper at all and he remembered my name for an old person. I came home from work yesterday and my landlady broke the news to me. By the time she told me, she had already cooled down and accepted the fact.

Although I don't know my aunt well but from my understanding, her family seems to have financial issues and as I grew, I came to learn that I have more cousins. Her eldest son had passed away due to a motor accident as well. Now, she has joined her son in other world. Hopefully her children can go through this and be tough. I wish to see them successful in life so they won't have to suffer from all of the agonies and worries.

The first news came to me very disturbingly and the fact that my dad's side now has three deaths due to motor accident. I have to pretend that I don't really care about my aunt's death but the fact that I really do mind. Although we don't know each other well but it's a life that we are talking about and her children that are so young that needs her.

Buddha bless them so they won't have to suffer in their next life. May their loved ones can go through this and let them be strong.


Tuesday, June 11, 2013


I'm eating ice cream (napoleon flavor) and surfing something else but not my research!

I got two more months due for the research and I'm about going to sleep~

Sigh~ when can I have fun in a big group? Crazy fun and doing endless stupid stuff because using too much brains will make me feel so zombie.

Who wants to go to G-Dragon concert with me? I want to go a concert at least. I dont mind starting with GD.

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Watching ANTM and streaming channel has removed all the ENGLISH shows. Perfectly genius.

This month I foresee is a long month and upcoming wasted month if I don't manage to absorb knowledge that I should be absorbing.

So exhausting... this is only the first week. There might be more that's coming and I just want this damn month to pass!

My time here is limited and I only want to treasure and cherish the time I have here. There are some thoughts that rose in my head and it always made the tears flooded my eyes. These thoughts are so long and windy, as for now I am indecisive but I must firm my stand that it will come some day. And when the day comes, I wouldn't want everything to be last minute, not able to store good memories and rushing everything off.

Good times won't last long. I know that damn day will come and it is time for me to give way to the younger ones. They have better capabilities and abilities than me. They should soar while I should provide support.

Damn, I just want this damn month to pass meaningfully.