Who says those who watch football games are gamblers????

Should I get a pixie cut, asymmetrical bob, bob with bangs or continue to let it grow?

Agyness Deyn looks fucking awesome in pixie cut!

@ Yesterday *Today #Tomorrow

@ the whole colleagues were concerning about a staff. CONCERN not GOSSIP.

@ the first FIFA match kicks off with a messy game. The concert was fucking high.

@ admitted that there's nil forms of relationship and I answered it without hesitation.

* I've begin to realize marriage provides insecurity.

* Almost everyday I'm hearing the same name and I fear for my fall again. xxsxx

* Jon was right, the more I work the more emotional I get after working.

* Portugal and Spain all the way.

* I am LOST.

# The world is still at it's size, I can still walk.

# The dream may last for long. Hopefully.

# I tried ignoring but your presence is so strong, you bastard. I'll try again.

Today my mind said...

#I wanna thank my colleague for accompanying me to accomplish my project. Thank you! Without her, I couldn't find my courage to continue this whole thing.

#Lately, I found my mouth has turned to less potty and I miss my old me.

#I've no fond of bragging for good or bad to the public cause you will not understand what the fuck am I conveying, which I rather tape my mouth in suffocation than being humiliate.

#I can wear jeans, skirts, dresses to work without worrying about informality. I'm allow to be casual.

#I also learn a new and interesting job and I thank that man to explain though he was in the midst of his business.

#I've been asked how many banks does Malaysia has? My answer: I don't know. Straightforward. I'm not bloody interested in banks that's similar to ah longs!

#I'm being use to be ignored and already immune. Call me lone ranger.

#Try staying out of everyone's affairs and businesses, it lead you to no good and shits.

#This week has finally written my affair with sotong and kangkung.

#Definitely need to learn the art of talking cock.

#Recently, I'm resenting my hatred towards those who draw conclusions swiftly without understanding the real situations.

maybe i'm still stuck in my comfort circle =(

All of the sudden, the emptiness feeling emerged to the tip of the heart.

I kept browsing and browsing to a list of communicators but I just couldn't pick one to communicate. I couldn't even turn on a communication and I know it will just stop right there [full stop]

Instead, I turn to bunch of reading materials on the line which I've to admit that I'm already being pushed to the end of the road. Yet, I just love the way I'm with a little bit of whine (maybe not little but more).

I wanna go and catch some movies and relax in some coffee house or restaurant. You'll be wondering 'bout shopping, well, I prefer dealing it alone. It's just some peace I'm dealing with myself while shopping.

Today, I'm so bored to the extreme of playing SUDOKU. FML.

When the Clockwatching- J. Mraz hit the climax of the song, I felt like crying. Tears of mixed (joy + sadness)

Of course you can't tell that I'm ecstatic coz you don't know.

Current New Addi[c]tion Playlist

• Clockwatching- Jason Mraz (sounds like my fun moments)
• Bella Luna- J. Mraz (the moon is beautiful)
• No Stopping Us- J. Mraz (I have more than what you think)
• Absolutely Zero- J. Mraz (I want more zeros in my bank account)
• Lonely In Gorgeous- Paradise Kiss OST (Being lonely can be gorgeous at times.. fuck)
• Everything you Want- Vertical Horizon (It could be 'you' that's in front of my eyes)
• Automatic- Tokio Hotel (emotional rhythm)
• Jenny- Click Five (I just replaced it with Danielle)
• The Light Before We Land- Gunslinger Girl OST (Wave goodbye to Buddha before I land here)
• Waltz- Suneohair (One day.. just one day)
• Fluorescent Adolescent- Artic Monkeys (those days had over)
• Details in the Fabric- J. Mraz and James Morrison (Know your name and find the way)
• Do you wanna- Franz Ferdinand (Not sure if I know what I want)

Can you tell that I'm ecstatic????

Lady Dreamer, you might be the soundest sleeper,

Tonight sleep tight and build your nest upon my shoulder.

Equal Opportunities

双面人只会讲鸟话。他讲鸟话是没错，我们信他的所言就是我们的错。

When the majority intend to overthrow the futile minority, ass kissing activities are surging to the surface to soothe our dissatisfactions over these years.

Yet, there's no point giving a chance to trust them as it's just a show they have to put on temporarily. In the long term, we still have to undergo all the bullshits that we don't deserve all the while. Don't you find it amusing when they have to please us at times like this? We have more talents that is deserve to expand endlessly than you have.

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Ya know, we're not like any typical Japanese girls whom only aim to get married after their high school graduation. There's whole lot more to discover rather than being tied up.

Is it really shameful for a woman whom has surpass the ideal age of marriage still staying single?

Is it a necessity to have children after married? What's the purpose of having children when you knew that your career has to be in the first place?

Is it a disgrace to be an independent woman?

Why can't people respect an elderly woman who is upholding her power but still stay single?

I hate the 'norms' given by the elders here. The world has changed and all genders have equal rights, we don't mean to despise men but all we want is equal opportunities in everything we do. Even Michelle Wie has already in the PGA and LPGA, she can be in the same line with the men. Oprah Winfrey is listed as the highest earning celebrities compare to others and it's a list of men and women. Kathryn Bigelow has proven that even female can dominate the Academy Award. Anita Roddick's lead a successful journey for Body Shop. There are more to list.

I don't understand why women have to bow down to men? Men shouldn't think they are the only dominant brainy mammals in this world, that's ego.

Back those days, women were born to do houseworks, stay loyal to husband and take care of children. Yet, men those days only need to find money for the households, they can even stay unfaithful to the wife which those donkey people are proud of their jerk acts, they call it 'real man'. When a woman is being unfaithful, donkey people are being barbarous and decided to torture her to death. That is how sad for a woman.

Why can't women deserve equal treatment from the public? Even men's mother are women, shouldn't they respect all women equally like how they respect their mothers?

I'm not discriminating men's ability and I admit that they possess stronger abilities than us but what we want is equal treatment from the men. Is it that hard?

I hate the norms set by those elders.

Paradise Kiss

*Sweep sweep* *dust dust*...

It's probably growing spider's cobwebs. Anyhow, I wasn't pretty busy nor pretty free but rather not in the blogging mood.

Exactly a week ago, I mentioned that I hate that bloody phrase 爱情是力量 which is completely cocks and bulls to me. How ridiculous, if love is everything, try survive without your energy sources, FOOD. Bah! Bullshit. Besides, how much energy are you gonna get from love, you're for sure gonna get sick and tired by pleasing each other rather than being yourself. This bloody stupid phrase recalled while I was listening to a Chinese song which I over concentrate on the lyrics and mortified. Goosebumps came out and of course, I hated that phrase regardless how much you repeat.

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Recently, I stumbled upon some manga and I wanted to read those I've watched before.

[Paradise Kiss]

While I was reading it, I was imagined myself in that story at the same time... Ok.. it's not a crime or sin to picture myself in the story by inserting my soul in the characters. After all, imagination contains of endless boundaries.

After finishing the manga, flashbacks recalled and everything begin to feel bittersweet. I wasn't really saddened by those life I've gone through but rather sobbing over those tiny bits of feelings. So, the real question mingled in my brain throughout the day, was it a lust, desire or genuine?

Goddamn! You should watch that story... Believe me, girls would definitely fall for George, see it for yourself. The girl... is just like any of us. But, I was disappointed with the ending of the anime as it's seems incomplete while the manga... was incomplete also but owns more details. Maybe I'm expecting too much from the conclusions itself. But, how would I end up in the next 10 years to come?

Will blog about this soon

TMD, Don't talk to me about 爱就是力量.

Fucking stupid shit. Will blog about this soon coz I wanna sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aargh... I'm suppose to come out 40 questions for my questionnaire and PROCRASTINATION disease has come back!

I'm so lonely and boring to the extent of going maniac and freakish. It's all about my fetish on SNL.

From L-R: Andy Samberg, Seth Meyers, Jason Sudeikis, Fred Armisen, Darrell Hammond, Amy Poehler, Kenan Thompson, Bill Hader, Will Forte, Maya Rudolph and Kristen Wiig.

*Phew

All of them are equally funny and talented. But, there are few casts whom dare to own a distinguish and outrageous acts like Bill Hader and Kristen Wiig.

The current season I'm watching includes few featuring cast which shall be the future promising cast: Jenny Slate, Nasim Pedrad, Abby Elliott and Bobby Moynihan.

I love all of them and it's still hard for me to go for favoritism.

Ever since I began learning to watch CNBC, I love SNL and Jimmy Fallon was my favorite cast during that donkey years ago. Now, Jimmy has his own show called.... no idea.

Now, ever since I know BitComet, I began downloading episodes of SNL with many seeds and leechers.

Pictures that wanting to upload for donkey time ago.

Random pictures found in my phone and been wanting to upload these pictures but just too lazy to do it.

Just found out that my supervisor is someone whom I did not imprint my impression on my supervisor... DOOM!

Good news about my changes is that I ain't sick anymore. Bah... you don't know what I'm talking about.

Another good news about my workplace is that I don't have to be in formal yet I can be informal or semi formal. That's the best part!

I'm no longer friend sick but rather enjoying the companion of unfamiliarities. I'm DANI!

JIWANG SECTION

Sometimes, you just have to post this question to yourself, would you rather die or stay alive when you found out all of your love ones had gone? JIWANG!

At times, people are so extremely funny to the extent that it irritates you. Of all people, why me? It's not as if I'm the only one that exist in the world. JIWANG!

I don't want to be ignore but people tend to ignore me so there goes my existence. JIWANG!

People tend to cut off my sentence and I'm kind enough to let them finish their sentence as they wants attention. JIWANG!

Sometimes, I feel 'kek sim' for those whom I throw all my consciences for them and this is how I got treated back. JIWANG!

Should I turn back to cold hearted and just leave it dead when you have everything to save their asses? JIWANG!

The world behind my wall. JIWANG!

I need a therapist or psychologist to turn back my sanity. JIWANG!

I'm not envy but I just want it real. JIWANG!

Is it so hard just to earn a little respect after I had bloody save all of your asses??? NABEH!!!! You don't care how I feel do you? TMD, TL, KNN. Fuck!

I swear this is not photoshop.

Whatever you would like to call it as. But, it's heavenly amazing.

Desperate for ice- cream

I don't care what ya gonna describe me but this is the way!

Peach Napoleon from ZEN. Absolutely heaven. Now, to think about it, my workplace is so near to DP and MP. It's in the town.

Jacqueline and her Passion Fruit/ Mango Mousse.

ME in the form of Pistachios' shells. Haha.. got nothing best to do at all.

My profile shot.

The answer is... it is indeed hard to earn one fucking tiny respect from a sore loser like you. Fuck you!

想一步登天。。。除非是神。

Industrial training, one thing for sure, they don't need you unless they want you to do their donkey jobs! I mean who wants a trainee anyways that's still studying and not graduated which they assume you are not fully equip with all the titles but just bearing the name of your majors.

Yet, the best part of my workplace is the office is so serene, everyone is in their room. There will be one particular man who always come and hang out with the clerks for speeches. He's a good speaker anyways. Furthermore, I don't feel so isolated and I learned about some computer system stuff. oooh... best part is also I got to drive up and down with a journey of 30 minutes with different routes! hahaha. It takes time for me to discover Melaka. haha. They even told me not to enter the office so early and there's no fixed time for lunch. I'm still thankful to those who helped me in the office. They are so awfully nice.

While my friends were so lucky to apply their studies in their work, me...I have never thought of applying anything in the work too. So, I guess my work doesn't require anything to do with financial stuffs which I think those stuff are also being models and showcases for my brain. Just hopefully I'm able to learn at least something with what I've learned but I only intend to build up my soft skills and being flexible. Don't ask me why coz the road is so long winded.

I'm naked here... no high hopes please!

Behold, I officially declare the second year of my Uni life is done. Though I had made my official declaration but I just don't want to end up badly for my results... it's like the 1929 Wall Street Crash. Damn! I'm being told that I tried too hard where I'm lack of chilling down.

Frankly, the blog is mostly where I reveal my fears and inferiors which of course, you can see how much a person I am actually. If you stalk me, you could actually picture my reactions and behaviors in real. It's like Lady Gaga's nude face in Bad Romance but I'm not trying to convey that I'm soft but inferiority and naked truth.

Currently, I'm just so bloody fearful for my internship during the four months. I'll be training in a brokerage firm. As I listened to my peers' lucrative tasks and benefits, I began to wonder if my starting point was a bad beginning. My beginning seems to be slightly dark, I don't receive any briefing from my manager and the secretary's voice sounds like a I-don't-care and backstabber. FML!

In fact, I only have like 2 more days of holidays, where the hell do I have the time to do all the fucking shits I want????

I'm trying my best to stay as much as an optimist till I'm able to see the other side of edges.

The other place for my thoughts to solace is where I spit those baloneys out so that I could totally be expressive enough. Naked enough.

Blah!@#$%

Am waking as early as I can for tomorrow's dim sum!

They get me high but this time is exceptional!

Despite all my reluctance to blog during the exam period but because of them I really do have the urge to blog!

They get me so fucking high all the time but this time is exceptional. Double the high, double the fun! Damn damn damn!!!!

Even my bro bobs his head. (He listens to Mozart and Beethoven)

Definitely the God of Music.

It's Daft Punk Alive 2007.

It's a combination of all Interstella 5555!!!!

Around the World + Harder Better Faster Stronger

One More Time + Aerodynamic (My fave!)

Face to Face + Short Circuit + HBFS (go figure it out!)

Damn fucking awesome pieces!

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„ø¤º°¨FOREVER!!!`°º¤ø

I'm still enraged with my sudden mood switch, that's because this piece of rhythmic piece is drowning me in a sea of hope(less). [Details in the fabric- Jason Mraz and James Morrison]. I've been replaying this song all over again, don't ask me why.

Within a year, I'll be stepping into a world that I'm completely unprepared to discover. Will I fumble or will I pace?

Not only I'm living like a loser but my life seems to be mundane and routine. Haven't I earned my hardships all the way? Sometimes, being on the par of everything is leading me to nowhere, I've decided to quit being on the par but the factors were the ones that manipulating the surrounding.

I can't help but to whine like a bitch.

Enough now, enough, it's time to let go.

I miss eu but i was known for the wrong reasons.

of all people, why?

it's like flora and charles from 4 weddings and a funeral. i don't know how to open my mouth.

it's like mark and juliet from love actually except i m mark and eu are juliet. already late.

Make it Mine...

Throughout whole day, I've been listening to Jason Mraz's "Make it Mine" from various concerts and shows.

Apart from being my favorite and repeatable song, it has wonderful meaning behind the composition of this exciting song. Mr. A-Z said that the song is all about the whole journey and process to posses a belonging. Something about montage and sequences of diligence to make all the way through our destination.

Don't ask me why I kept listening to that one and only song today, coz I gotta feeling.

Here are his tours.

Gratitude Cafe tour

In Amsterdam.

Indonesia.

Gratitude Cafe itself. (there's such place)

Live 2008

Kesedihanku yang tidak dapat difahami

My precious,

I've longed to see you,

Today, I managed to finally found you,

My happy feelings are surreal,

You are there for real,

You belong with the infinity value,

Today I managed to seal the sorrows,

I managed to conquer the irritations,

I managed to smile,

Yet, once again, sorrows and sadness appear,

Like a knife stabbing straight to my heart,

Like a wave of Tsunami,

Big wave one after another,

If you truly understand my undergo,

Please remain silent and let me be,

For you are not in my shoes,

Let me be,

Please come back to me my precious,

Please come back to me my precious,

I've lost once,

I vowed for to let it be the last time,

But, I broke my vow,

Please forgive me.

Baby, come back to me.

Kesayangan aku yang tidak terhingga- hingga,

sampai hati kau,

membuat aku sedih yang tidak terhingga- hingga,

tiada lagi yang aku boleh fikir selain kau.

Setelah sekian lama,

hari inilah kau yang membuat aku gembira,

setelah sekian lama,

aku tidak sedar dan sangka.

Kau meninggalkan aku dengan kesedihan dan kepahitan,

aku sangka ku boleh menakluki sehari dengan kegembiraan,

tapi pasti ada kesedihan dan keperitan kehadiran,

kemalangan yang tidak dapat dielakkan.

Nilai kau yang tidak terbatas,

kau juga mengandungi jiwa yang tidak terbatas,

jiwa kau telah menempuhi umurku,

kaulah miliku.

Aku telah berjanji tidak mengulanginya lagi,

Namun kemalangan tetap mengulangi,

aku telah berjanji tidak akan mengulanginya lagi,

Aku bukannya ada hati mengingkari janji.

Kehilanganmu tiada orang yang lebih memahami selain ku,

biarlah aku yang sahaja mengenangi mu,

hanya aku memahami apa yang ku perlu,

aku tetap sedih dan pasrah demi mu,

A fail note to thyself

This is an introduction of me all over again.

My name is Danielle and I'm 21 years old already. 21, an age number that signifies everything is legal including, gambling and voting in Malaysia. I was born on the Labor Day, lucky enough for the whole world to embrace me in this world. My childhood years in Brunei was the best memories I had. Brunei Darussalam.

I don't know what to describe about myself as I intend to write a self note for myself and in future, I'm able to recall back how... young, stupid and foolish I was.

One of the most distinctive and notorious characteristics I own is cursing and swearing excessively. Yes, I do have a potty mouth and like they all said... I can swear like a sailor except today is my big day, which means I will restrict myself from saying those words. Don't get me tempt.

At times, I can be straightforward if I want to and express whichever I like without using much of my brains. Sorry if I ever offended anyone. This is a habit I need to observe and change.

I'm a professional procrastinator. Yes, if you need assistance, please do not hesitate to call me. 1-300- LAZY- 1234

I wouldn't call myself a boring person but rather mood-less. If the vibe emitted is rock, fun, bubbly, crazy and cool.. definitely count me in and vice versa. Thus, music is the source of my energy but it depends on which genre. It also explains why I'm bipolar when the DJ change music.

At times, I can be an emo bxtxh as I have too much rubbish thoughts mingling around my head which definitely brings no benefit at all. All I have to do is control my jiwang-ness. It's always there but it's the matter of how one control... cheh... sounds as if I'm controlling my psychic powers like Jean Grey.

I love to be in the center of attention for the right cause, sadly... the wrong cause that got me into attention. Not to forget, I am a whiny person, well, at times.

To unknowns I may look snobbish but deep down I don't care what are you picturing me as until you've finally spoken to me.

I'm trying to take advantage of this world by exploring and discovering the amazement and amusement that the earth has given me. Yet, don't get me wrong, it's only discovering but not exploiting, Mother Earth has given me more than I ever ask for.

This sounds cliche but I still have to say it loud. In the process of finishing this journey of life, I'm still learning all way down the road.

That's all from my complex characteristics.

Now, here comes the basic characteristics.

I've constantly praised and uplifted the color Blue and trashed down the color Pink. Pink, after all, is not a bad color but it's the color that made me feel stupid.

Ever since I earned my driving license, the car's radio is extremely important to me while I'm driving that's cause I'm singing in the car all the time!

John Mayer has always been my favorite music artist and his music at times makes me feel emotional and bipolar.

I'm an avid art collector, some called it art thief but I'm always there to appreciate those artworks by all those small artists especially photography. Creativity is one divine outcome that make everyone's day. I wish to own my gallery too.

I still love photography but you hardly see my artworks cause I don't have the root of all evil.

To those who had experienced my driving, I love driving and I fully understand that my skills are hazardous to yours and my life. Driving aids my inspirations and motivations. =)

Till these days, I'm still with cuts and bruises on my hands and legs, in short, clumsy.

I love to keep short hair so much that I constantly cut my hair the moment the length surpass my face.

People think I'm smart but the fact that I'm not.

I enjoy and adore underrated movies, musics and artists. In fact, I love parody and comedy movies, don't ask me why.

I'm still a child.

I used to wore braces during my foundation days and was proud of it yet till now, I hate wearing my retainers cause my teeth loves to move around.

Today, I look at my closet, it's time to change my wardrobe!

Lastly, if you have been reading and following my blog, you definitely know my loves and hates. But, to my stalkers, if you wanna get me a belated birthday present, please get me a Passion Fruit body butter from Body Shop. Many thanks.

Enough of the note to thyself. More likely of a random facts to myself. Thanks to my parents for bringing me to this world on this special day. Plus, thanks to all who have wished me! Really appreciate those blessings and words.

Amitabha.

=)

Thank you to all for the blessings and wishes!

Amitabha and Happy Labor Day to all!

Since it's a big day, thou shall not curse and swear for a day. Hopefully. So don't freaking get me mad!