I really wish I could use a knife right now and stab all these bullshits mingling in my life.

For ex: receive a summon out of nowhere, my highly anticipated programme got crash and it took me rubbish time to cure the crash programme.

What's even ridiculous is that I'm still suffering from the thoughts that I concluded. I really wish I could borrow a shoulder to cry on. Physically. I'm getting clueless already, it's either I've to put it down and walk off or to stay and wait for hopeless hopes.