I've got so many things to do or rather achieve but I don't know where to begin.
During uni days, I regularly used my brains to expand my creativity upon given a task. I must say that I'm neither good nor bad, in another term average. Now, I'm given a task but I'm always staring at the monitor blankly. Everyday, I was told to propose something but I couldn't give a piece of shit from my mind.
I always blame the organization's culture for not utilizing our creativity. Yet again, there's a saying, if there's a will, there's always a way. Yes, always a way but how do I find the way at the first place? Thoughts to ponder.
Have I not done enough?
There's once some person played a psychology game with me. The person characterized me that I'm not a perfectionist. I will definitely know something but I will never master the something, that I... admit. I'm always missing the pieces here and there but never eager to finish filling up the missing pieces.
How to improve my efficiency and my brainstorms?
Everyday I was given mixed signals but I fall into the trap. It's my fault to trigger the signal. I shouldn't further trigger the signal because I'm scared. I don't know what to do, I don't know what else should I do. I need to stop because I cannot afford to be surrounded with fears and confusions.
I really cannot afford to be afraid.
I've got so many consequences to consider but I might not be the one.
The future is bright, the age is still young, that means I still have the time.
I shall not fear but to move on.